SPM trials, DONE!

Halelujah!!!
Ok I have no idea if my spelling is right or wrong. lol...
At last! It's done! Days of freedom is back again...
But not entirely thought...
One month to really Step Up and Score in my SPM!
This trial exam has really made me realise how weak I am in all of the subjects...
And how worried I was in doing it.
I want everything so perfect but I messed everything up in the end cause I always feel as if I suck in everything!
Gotto relax! Be happy!
Confidence is all I need!
No more EMOness...
Gotto ditch it!
Back to being a Punk ass kid is better than an EMO.
EMO NO FUN!!!
Being a perfect lil princess is NO FUN either!

Yay yay!
Today I get to go Taiping Central!
I get to watch a movie!
I got free tickets!
Too bad my mum has it!
She gonna chooose the movie!
She wanna watch Horror movie!

Like...
ARGH!!! A DOG A PANIC IN A PAGODA!

The movie is called SUsuk or something...
If got the movie 'Step Up 2 the streets'
I MATI MATI wanna watch that movie!!!
I don't wan no horror movie!
If anybody wanna see a girl freeking out in the cinema in Taiping tonight, come and see la...

2 more weeks to my b'day!
Can't wait!
I don't care what my stupid Soulless so called best friend say about me!
I wanna enjoy myself, I'll enjoy myself!
She is NO FUN! OLD FASHIONED! NUMBER 1 MOST SELFISH PERSON IN THE WORLD!!!!!!! EMOTIONLESS!!! DISRECPECtFUL!!! IrRESPONSIBLE!!! HAS NO LIFE!

SERIOUSLY she has got to get a LIFE!!!!
If she reads this, she don't even care!
She will think I'm stupid to write all of this cause she thinks I'm stupid to care about her!
DAMN BLOODY HELLL!!!!! IF u r my BLOODY SHITTING BEST FRIEND! OF COURSE I CARE!
SHE DON'T CARE IF SHE DOESNT EVEN HAVE FRIENds!
SHE IS SUCH A MIND BLOWING STUBURN FREEK, LIVING IN HER OWN WORLD, F***ING SELFISH, ONLY THINKS HER OPINION IS TRUE, SOULLESS N DAMN BLOODY F***ING SHITTING SELFISH!!!!!!!!!

But watever... She is still my best friend and has been for nearly 2 years...
I don't know how I can tolerate her... SHe can't even admit that I am her Best Friend! LIKE WTH!!!
Than what am I to her? A so called Best friend who is not really a best friend? WHAT???? She loves and care for no one but herself! Is it wrong for me to care so much about a friend and best friends?
Is it wrong for me to love watching movies, hanging out with friends, having silly crushes on boys and most importantly, LIVING MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST!
Not everything has to be on studies, studies, studies, books, thinking, solving problems, books, thinking, thinking and more thinking!

Well, I've got the green light to write all this things about her which is dam true! Cause she don't even care! SERIUSLY! SHE DON'T CARE!!!!!! She only laughs about it! I'm gonna show her and let her read everything the next time she pays me a visit!

I can even write what she would say to me...
"Why must u care about me? Don't care la! If I admit u r my best friend, then I won't be happy cause I have to worry about u all the time."
She is so afraid of commitment! If she does admit I am her best friend, what is she suppose to worry about? Then she will say, "I have to worry about keeping u happy all the time. If we fight or argue and lose the friendship, then I will be sad and unhappy because I can't keep the friendship alive."

Aiyo! I don't know la...
If she doesn't admit me as her best friend, I feel as if I'm just a toy to her...
Once broken, thrown away and never to be remembered again... It's like I'm nothing to her...
Friendship is love she says... But she don't even know the true meaning of both friendship and love...

Wow! I terpesong until here eh...
Better stop myself before I start writing stupid nonsence again...
Wah So hungry! Ouch...

Good Thing or Bad Thing?

Today was the EST 1 and MAth 1 paper day...
Math was no problem and for the first time,
I was able to finish the whole thing on time!
After the math papers were collected back, the teacher annouce...
The following names that are announce please come and take ur PLKN borang.
I was like OMG!
I'm gonna get it!
I was kinda happy and excited actually...
I waited and waited for my name...
"Bla bla bla..."
"Bla bla bla..."
"Bla bla bla..."
"OK semua pelajar boleh bersurai sekarang..."
What? What? What?
I was like...
What?
What about me?
Where is my borang?
My friend told me to ask the teacher, so I did...
She said that my name wasn't on the list and told me to check in my previous school...
Hmm...
Aint it awesome if I don't have to go for PLKN...
SHould I get that borang or should I just ignore it?
Maybe it's lost and I can have an excuse...
Or maybe it is in my earlier school...

So,
I asked my friend in tuition not long ago...
She said the school did distribute the forms but they didn't know if mine was there...
Nobody mentioned about me...

Furthermore...
THe school wants the forms back by Monday...
What am I to do?
I wouldn't wanna enter my former school again...
I'm too afraid...lol...

CAn I escape PLKN?
Or is this just a delusion?
Maybe this is a chance!
Or it's just trying to make a fool out of me...

Whatever it is...
I want to get over with it sooner or later...

National Service...

Wow! I never thought I would read those words... "Tahniah! (My IC num), (My full Name) anda telah dipilih untuk menyertai Program Latihan Khidmat Negara 6/2009" I was like shouting in the car... "What! No! Shit! WTF! ARGH!!! WTH!!!"... Three months! Three months! Three months!!! I don't wanna spend three months in NS! I wanna learn driving and my music! I felt like the horse in this video... Look how those horses march... Awesome! But WTH... I gotto go... And I am going lol... It's not the activities that are bothering me, It's the staying there for three months that is bothering me! I love doing rough and tough activities... BUt I hate staying in a place where I have to... I can't even imagine myself bathing in the toilet!

ARGH!!!!

But I'm gonna be tough! Nothing is gonna bring me down there!

To me, it's gonna be fun and painful at the same time...

I'm not a social person and making friends is one problem...

I hate racist and I know I'm gonna get in trouble there...

However, I'm highly disciplined...

I'm not as wild and untamed like Spirit...

I'm more like those stupid horses that follow orders lol...

But I can be like Spirit if I have to be...

HAha...

How I started bloging here...

Hmm... I wonder what I should write in here... Nothing exciting really happens in my my life... Maybe I should just write about this blog I started... I found this Blogger when I heard about the war between Convent and St George that started from a harmless comment in one of my friend's blog in Blogger... I created this account just to post a comment in his blog and since I've already created an account, why not use it right... So here I am again... Staring at the computer screen, thinking of what to write... Other than this blog, I have another blog in friendster... Anybody interested to visit that blog are welcomed... http://steph_sp.blogs.friendster.com/sp_no_1_fan/ Add me as a friend in friendster too if interested... I'm always happy to befriend more people!